retrospect
who am i? sometimes i ponder who i’ve become and if i’m happy with the me that i am now. the answer is and will always be yes. although at times i feel disappointed within myself. that’s the side of me that is negative, however, i try to avoid it. i tell myself that as cliche as it may sound, everything in life happens for a reason and it is only up to me to let change follow thereafter. fuck, i’m off one day because i have a mild kidney infection and it feels somewhat annoying. it’s almost bittersweet. i only take time off to myself whenever i’m sick or hungover(ha), that’s when i’m willing to tend to myself most. i haven’t written in days, weeks, months, or now it may even seem like years. i’ve stop doing the one thing i love most…writing. my writing skills are going downhill. what are my excuses? none other than i’m too busy, my life is too hectic, i don’t have enough time, the same b.s. you get it. truth is, it may be fear of failure that i’m not willing to accept from my years of mischief and bad behavior. lol. truth is life threw me lemons and i had to just add alcohol and perfect my lemonade. now, here i am, out of lemons and out of alcohol. in a blog or so ago, i had mention to not let my past affect my future, but teehee, i did yet again. i’m snapping out of it quick though, because as i know, i just hit another birthday, one so very few years close to the dirty thirty. what would i do today if i wasn’t afraid? hmm…a lot of things. BUT why WHY why can’t i just take the first step into trying? as creative as i am, that’s also as big of a procrastinator that i am. not to mention, my best friend’s christmas present is still in my closet. anyway, my boyfriend is one of the greatest influences in my life, and every day he makes me want to achieve my goals more and more. in retrospect, i’m glad life has thrown me so many unfair scenarios and made me a stronger person. to life, i won’t let you pass me by anymore. forever yours. xoxo
![Who is the only one keeping the Secret?
shoo….
se . cret |ˈsēkrit| adjective: not known or seen or not meant to be known or seen by others : how did you guess I had a secret plan? | the resupply effort was probably kept secret from Congress.• [ attrib. ] not meant to be known as such by others : a secret drinker.• fond of or good at keeping things about oneself unknown : he can be the most secret man.• (of information or documents) given the security classification above confidential and below top secret.
is it really a kept secret? i’ve always wonder, why have secrets when in the end, everyone silently knows. is it that hard to keep your mouth on the hush? does it feel better to release the secret and exude from the exhaustion it gives you from holding on to it? everybody knows the secret now silly, just because nobody says anything doesn’t mean nobody knows. in fact, everyone one knows. it is always best to remain silent then to shares your secrets with those you adore only to know they’ve let you down. xoxo](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l1oh3tDK2i1qbx86jo1_400.jpg)
